Christmas dad

So life is always filled with so many unexpected moments. One in particular is those of emotions that  arise when those days of celebrations occur. Christmas one of the many days that I reflect on. I personally think of my family that are not with me and wonder how they would be today. In saying this I also am filled with gratitude of all the love of family and friends I am surrounded with on a daily basis.
My challenges are so similar to yours. I know someone who lives with the motto of 'never say never', this very person is the one who taught me so much, I do wonder if this phase is a 'cop out' into dealing with life's matters. I also learnt how to toughen up when you don't have the one you love in your life around when others have their loved ones present.
I do miss those I love not being physically with me during Christmas especially as this is one of a recent event. I picture dad dressing up as Santa climbing from the rooftop down the ladder waving his bell so to attract the attention of all the neighbors children who waited every year for him to dress up. Dad was my first love as a girl and always will remain so. It may have been his sense of humor or his adoring affection he demonstrated so openly for mum. Nevertheless, he was the one who made me laugh. Dad was the one who always made things okay - after all, he was the only Santa I knew.

'Praying Angel' artwork by Rosa Carrafa